I am from rain to bright colors

From the sunshine yellow of sunflowers

I am from Guadalajara, Jalisco

Con orgullo pero sin futuro

I am from the gray that fills my life

I am from the pill I need to feel fine

I am from laughter and joy

But wait let me tell you about this boy

Who treats me like a toy

I am from the silence of my brother

But the love of my sister

I am from my parents hard work and love

I am from my bed

Where I dread

What will be of me, ahead

Listen to what I said

To me you were everything I ever asked for

To my friends you were everything I didn’t need

 

At first I kept you a secret

In my eyes you were too good to be with me

 

I didn’t want to let down my defenses

Knowing you had bad intentions and horrible friends

Only leading to bad consequences

 

I thought you were different

I really did, I felt it this time but you just didn’t

 

You were filled with awkward conversations and disappointments

 

Should have had low expectations

 

Seeing you with her

But telling me “I’m the only one”

 

You can say what you want but I won’t believe it

I can now see right through you

You knew better but refuse to do better

 

Our relationship was nothing but unsafe and sound

 

I poured my heart out to you

Gave you my time and effort

In the end I was not enough

 

At first I was broken

Shattered into pieces

Slowly understanding the reasons

As to why it would never work

 

So many signs that he’s not just mine

So many signs that i’m still sharing what’s mine

No one told me it would be like this

 

If he doesn’t put in effort why should you

It’s okay to be sad

It’s okay to cry

Loving can hurt

In the end I never needed him

 

You might never hear this but

 

From the bottom of my heart

I wish you nothing but the best

I wish you happiness and success

Deep down you’re a great person

I’ll never find someone like you

But I guess that’s the whole point

My heart beats as every second ticks by

My stomach fills with butterflies

I’m focused and ready to begin

Only thing on my mind,

Is not messing up

 

Visualizing my surroundings

Planning my next move

 

Crowd sitting with there

With their eyes watching

Some even talking

Plenty of cameras

To capture our dancing

 

My team is ready

Breath in

Breath out

 

“Ladies your music is on”

 

Sense the thrill of the music

Together

All ready

 

Halftime, my favorite time

Performance time

Thanks for joining me!

Hello, I’m Mariana Cardoso, and this is my Published work from Creative Writing. In this blog, my poetry is included. My favorite works so far are Where I am from & Letter to Z.